| Self-imprisonment |
I could not see you
Through the cloud of faces in my head
All my past loves, and some present too,
tried to steal me away from you
They claimed they could love me better
And in my hurt I listened
I wrapped myself up in a cocoon
made of the deadly silken threads of deceit
it was comfortable
and warm
and safe
no one could touch me in there,
and I could dream about my loves without intrusion
or judgement
Your voice was muffled
Through the web of lies
That I told myself
Until the day that those loves
Showed me that they could hurt me too
You see, despite their best intentions
They were also subject to the
Power of lust and greed
And we were really just using each other
To feed our fantasies
Because a real love based on honesty and compassion
Didn’t exist in my heart…
Until the day you slashed open my cocoon of dreams
With the sword of Truth and forgiveness
And I was forced to see reality…
The blazing light hurt my eyes at first,
And I cried and lashed out from the pain of losing
what I thought was my protection
But gradually a blurred image became clear:
Your warm silhouette against the
Cold light of judgment;
Your deep voice,
Filled with kindness and mercy for me;
And your strong arms, holding me
Tighter then ever before.
I saw you, heard you, felt you,
For what seemed like the first time
And the faces in my head are melting away
One by one
Until the only one left is yours.
You, who loved me even while I was still
In my cocoon
You, who love me still as my wings slowly
Dry off and unfold
You, who will love me even when I fly high into the sky
rejoicing at the beauty of creation
And you, who I will always come back to,
The true face of love in this lifetime
To my true love,
My old-new love,
My when I’m feeling Blue love,
Even when I’m acting a FOOL love,
To You, I say a blessing,
I give a holy kiss,
I pray a prayer of thanksgiving to our god,
And I say Amen and amen
Amen
Rebekah Griffin Greene, September 25, 2011
Through the cloud of faces in my head
All my past loves, and some present too,
tried to steal me away from you
They claimed they could love me better
And in my hurt I listened
I wrapped myself up in a cocoon
made of the deadly silken threads of deceit
it was comfortable
and warm
and safe
no one could touch me in there,
and I could dream about my loves without intrusion
or judgement
Your voice was muffled
Through the web of lies
That I told myself
Until the day that those loves
Showed me that they could hurt me too
You see, despite their best intentions
They were also subject to the
Power of lust and greed
And we were really just using each other
To feed our fantasies
Because a real love based on honesty and compassion
Didn’t exist in my heart…
Until the day you slashed open my cocoon of dreams
With the sword of Truth and forgiveness
And I was forced to see reality…
The blazing light hurt my eyes at first,
And I cried and lashed out from the pain of losing
what I thought was my protection
But gradually a blurred image became clear:
Your warm silhouette against the
Cold light of judgment;
Your deep voice,
Filled with kindness and mercy for me;
And your strong arms, holding me
Tighter then ever before.
I saw you, heard you, felt you,
For what seemed like the first time
And the faces in my head are melting away
One by one
Until the only one left is yours.
You, who loved me even while I was still
In my cocoon
You, who love me still as my wings slowly
Dry off and unfold
You, who will love me even when I fly high into the sky
rejoicing at the beauty of creation
And you, who I will always come back to,
The true face of love in this lifetime
To my true love,
My old-new love,
My when I’m feeling Blue love,
Even when I’m acting a FOOL love,
To You, I say a blessing,
I give a holy kiss,
I pray a prayer of thanksgiving to our god,
And I say Amen and amen
Amen
Rebekah Griffin Greene, September 25, 2011